For the past few weeks I have been feeling quite inadequate. I keep thinking that I am not doing enough. I was giving myself a hard time because I felt as if I was not doing enough to achieve my goals. When I look around, especially on social media, I see people hitting massive goals and I would say to myself, ” chai Vanessa, what are you doing with your life sef?”
Honestly, I am not one to measure my progress by the standard of others but occassionaly I catch myself in this comparison craze and then I begin to measure my work and progress. Well, that was me a few weeks ago and then one night it all changed. One night before I went to bed, I decided to pray about it and I know God gave me a message. God does hear our prayers because His response was swift and simple. He said, ” slow down.”
In that moment, God showed me that there is no rush in life and that all I needed to do was to continue moving forward but at my own pace. The phrase that kept coming to me was, trust the process and enjoy the journey. “Vanessa, where are you running to? I mean, who is chasing you?” That night I came to the realization that everything will fall into place at the right time. Following that change in perspective, I began to assess all that I am currently doing as well as ponder over what I want to do and concluded that my plate is full…and, that is okay!
Trust the process and enjoy the journey.
Often times we hear people preaching this idea of hustle, grinding and juggling ten thousand things at the same time because it gives us a sense of accomplishment…we buy into it so much that when we are not doing all those things we simply conclude that we are not doing enough. Don’t get me wrong…please hustle if you must and do all you can by all means but please do so in moderation. As I reflected on this idea, I received another message, it said, ” Vanessa, you keep asking for more, but even with what I have given you, what have you done with it?”
Chai, that one ‘chook’ me…I felt it in my chest – I won’t lie. Here I was asking for more and yet I had not even effectively managed what I already had. How can I be given more responsibilities when I have not even accomplished the first set that was given to me? That morning I woke up with clarity, I woke up feeling less burdened and dedicated to be thankful for what I already have and prepared to be a better steward of what God has blessed me with. But most importantly, I was ready and still is ready to trust the process and enjoy my journey!
It is important for us to remember that we are all on different paths leading to different destinations, so enjoy your own journey and be a good steward of what you have while you strive for more and I know that everything that God has in store for you will fall into place!
Oya, let me go and face my front! Toodles!